Season 3 Is About To Begin...

I'm currently sitting in my room as I am about to start the first part of what appears to be the third season of my life's TV show (don't ask, my freshman year was season 1 and this last semester was season 2) and I feel like I'm being presented with my first conflict (of which I'm sure there are many more to come). I'm watching the musical episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer right now and I'm realizing how much the story of this episode pertains to where I am right now. I'm really identifying with Buffy. I'm "going through the motions" as I'm walking through life and really doing tons of amazing things, but not totally feeling the full extent of what I'm doing. That's not to say I'm taking my life for granted, I just wish that I could feel more alive. As Spike tells Buffy towards the end of the episode, living is the hardest thing to do and is the reason to have something to sing about. I really want to have something to sing about. I really hope I find it this season. I'm really thankful for what I have now, though, as I'm surrounded by amazing friends on both coasts. It was really tough saying goodbye to my friends tonight and I'm still a little emotional, just because depending on circumstances, I might not see them for almost a year if I find an internship or job in Los Angeles for the summer. I'm really torn but I'll just wait to see what opportunities present themselves before worrying about that.

I leave on a plane tomorrow (and I'm flying first class because I had enough points to upgrade!!!) and will be reunited with Lauren when she picks me up from the airport. Lauren and I have an awesome weekend ahead of us and I can't wait. It's going to be filled with Leo and Kate in Revolutionary Road, postponed Christmas present giving, Osteria Mozza, and the LA Sci Fi and Comic Convention with Kynt and Vyxsin from The Amazing Race 12!!! The Race Is On...